RJ 19/01/1989 Thursday
Today I got majorly dumped! Gustavo came here to see me and we talked. He wanted to have sex but I didn’t want to, I just wanted to talk. Then he said he was seeing a girl, from Cabo Frio, and that he was starting to like her, and that he came to see me just to see how he felt about me. He said he was tired, it was always a battle for him to get together with me, that I’m stupid, that he’s never getting together with me again, that I don’t like him… I was speechless. When he said he was starting to like this girl called Luciana I felt really jealous (why?). I also hurled lots of insults at him. He ate something, borrowed some books and left. He said to call him when I became more delicate. What a slap with silk gloves. It really got to me, I cried. He said so many hurtful, truthful things. I was starting to like him, he made me think he was into me and now this. And still, nothing from Gino, for fucks sake!
Elfio and Keyla spent the afternoon here, at least I wasn’t alone feeling sorry for myself. I told them about my sorrows and felt better. They advised me to call him. No way! He treats me like this and I go running after him? Even if it was all lies, he really hurt me. And if this Luciana is real I hope he dies with her.