RJ 02/06/1988 Saturday
Hello! I’m off to Brasilia on the 5th and as I won’t risk taking you with me this is the last time I’ll write for a while… I have a bad feeling about this trip, something is going to go wrong, but I have to go. The only thing there’s no solution for is death and sometimes death is the solution, and for that reason I’m not afraid of dying. I’m afraid of life and what lies ahead.
I’m really liking it here, maybe too much! The people from school are great and I even went away with them. I just hope not to get too attached; for now friendships aren’t too strong, but they are promising. In terms of boyfriends, two guys showed up: Rodrigo (not another one!) and Claudio, but it led nowhere! I’ve been suspended from school twice! Once for being disruptive and another for smoking during the break. I’m almost on holiday and because of my lack of commitment my grades have been awful.
Last weekend, me, Kiko, Gisele, Ana, Barbosao, Andre, Ellen and Luis went to Kiko’s house in Miguel Pereira, without any adults! Imagine the chaos! Why does time fly? I got very drunk on wine and jumped in the pool with my clothes on, it was really cold. What a great weekend!
It’s nearly 5 months since I kissed someone. I’m not saving myself for Gino, quite the opposite. If he’s in Brasilia he’s not coming near me. He just didn’t get in touch. As far as I’m concerned it’s over! I’m thinking Brasilia will be a disappointment because I’ve changed and am already missing here! My God, how the world spins… I’m really liking it here as I’ve met so many good people!