BSB 4/12/1987 Friday
My conscience weighed so heavily that I decided to kick Rodrigo out of my life forever. The weekend before last I didn’t go out with the gang. I went out with Luciana, Carlos and Danda (Luciana’s friend’s) just so there was no temptation if I saw Rodrigo. So I escaped that time. I barely spoke to him for days.
Last weekend, Luciana, Rodrigo and Patricia’s cousins were visiting from Goiania and I got off with Ronan, one of the radioactive cousins. Once again Marcos declared his love for me, he said he loved me! I told him to get lost. Then Negão said he liked me too. These boys are taking the piss.
On Sunday Marcus and Giuliane got together (she started being in our gang recently). William and Manuela are seeing each other, Luis Antonio with Tatiana; Paula and Renato, Aninha with Carlinhos. After Ronan left Andre said he wanted to be my boyfriend, on Tuesday, so I thought why not? 6 couples in 5 days! I’m with Andre just for the sake of it, because I feel absolutely NOTHING for him.
I’m already off school and went to Marcos’ house in the morning every day this week, as his mother has gone away on holiday. Today Luis Antonio decided to join the club of the boys in love with me (what the fuck!?) and declared himself. He said he’d break up with Tatiana if I went out with him… I didn’t believe him and said he was just taking the piss, except he got really mad and nearly cried and I think he wanted to punch me, I was speechless. He said he liked me for a long time. I asked him for a week to have a think about what to do with Andre. I don’t like either of them… Then on Tues/Weds Rodrigo confused me even more, he said I stood him up on Saturday, that I went out with Carlos, that I seemed distant and strange. He said he’s coming this Saturday at 3am to pick me. Can you believe it?
[NOTE: I think that, because I was moving away, some of they boys decided they liked me? There’s a lot of twists and turns during these last months in Brasilia, but I’m keeping those private for now]