BSB 19/10/1987 Monday – Rodrigo
Leticia speaking. I spoke to Rodrigo, quite a lot. We spoke on Thursday, for a short while, because we were soon surrounded by the gang. I concluded he’s a man and I’m a girl… On Friday he was near me but Renata was stuck to him (she likes him too, this woman just gets in the way of everything in my life! How is this possible???). Later she called me to go to a party at Sigma but I couldn’t go, I had exam the next day. Alexandra is the only person who knows about this. We left, Cleiton, Negão, Renata, Rodrigo, William, Patricia, Charlinho, Marco, Luciana, Osorio, Reginaldo, Carlinhos, the other Rodrigo, I think that was it. We went to Gilberto and me, him, William, Renata and Carlinhos went for a smoke. So nice. At the bar, while everyone drank I was just tripping. From there went to Gilbertinho. I was talking to Rodrigo and he asked me what was Marco talking about. I asked him what had Marco told him, he said Marco had asked him what he had told me (what a confusing mess!) and why I was angry. I was stoned so everything came out wrong, I called Marco, it was all so confusing.
Rodrigo seemed mad because of the confusion, which I still don’t know what it was about. I think he thought I told Marco what happened between us (which I didn’t) and he said if I had it was my problem, he just wanted to ‘protect my reputation’. I told him I hadn’t said anything, but he seemed mad and we didn’t look at each other after that. I was getting anxious, I was in his car and I was not stoned anymore, so I felt down and sleepy. To make things worse, Renata, Patricia and Luciana were all flirting with Rodrigo. Hard to resist. He’s handsome, charming and clever!!! I kept myself to myself and we went to Velho Elite. People tried to cheer me up but it wasn’t working. I was broken and wanted Rodrigo. I realised it was all messed up thinking I was an idiot and thinking he thought I was an idiot. We went back to 405 and he came up to me to ask what was wrong with me. I said I was fine. Most people left at 2 except me, Rodrigo, Carlinhos and Fabiano. I wanted to talk to him and wasn’t going home yet. We drove around Gilberto, then we got back, Rodrigo dropped Fabiano off, Carlinhos left and finally: Alone!
We talked some more, he said what happened was just spontaneous and unexpected, a bit crazy, and I insisted on thinking everything he said that night was true, that we could get together again or even be a couple. But I woke up, we talked lots and I guess we can be good friends. And maybe when a cloud of spontaneity precipitates over us we may have another crazy night, so crazy I can’t remember all of it.
Thanks Rodrigo, I almost thought you were the guy who was going to change everything. SHIT!!!!