BSB 06/07/1986 Sunday
Rilson came here at 7 and stayed until 8:30. We were going to meet later at Gilberto, if his brother was up for it, but he wasn’t so we didn’t see each other. This is the longest I’ve been with someone. To him it’s not a big deal to touch me up and do stuff with his girlfriend, but for me, I don’t know what to do. Today he was putting his hands everywhere, and I want it but I also don’t want it? I think we need to be together for longer. My mum said I should talk to him about this, but I don’t know how. I feel like a headless chicken, I don’t know what to do. And to think I thought I knew everything.