BSB 13/1/1986 Monday
Today I only went out for a bit in the afternoon. I got up early at 8:30 and went to the shop alone to buy a card for Beu. It’s been so long since I went out on my own. I wrote on the card, posted it, then read some magazines.
I called Lara and we talked for ages. She didn’t go anywhere, like Viviene. It rained every single day here.
It seems I forgot Henrique in a blink of an eye no? I think so, I only think about him as a friend. I don’t know if I will still like him when I see him again. Obviously if Beu lived here I’d never think about Henrique again, but he’s so far away and I’m sure I will never see him again anyway, so not worth thinking about him too much. I never liked someone like this, so quickly and I know that despite him being surrounded by girls, he’s thinking of me too. He’s so different from Henrique, he has a really sincere, he has a thoughtful look in his eyes, it seems like crap you read in cheap novels, I didn’t think these things were true: destiny, romance, respectful guys. I found a diamond and lost it so quickly. Why did I only meet him on the last night. He used to hold me so tight and make me feel so special, like only the two of us existed, so amazing! It was like I’d know him all my life, I felt so comfortable around him. I’d never stay with someone I don’t know, in a place I don’t know, but he made me trust him.
He had this habit of looking at me from the corner of his eye, then I’d do the same, he’d smile and I would too. He would only walk holding my hand on the left side because he’s left handed and when he walked on my right side he’d trip. I don’t want to forget him even though I will never see him again and he will meet other girls. I will never lose hope to see him again one day.