RJ 06/05/1988 Friday – Life goals
This afternoon some of us went to Andrea’s house to watch ‘Dirty Dancing’. It was mostly girls and two guys from our class. They’re ok but not great. Patience, I have to be content with this, it might be I’m just not used to them.
News from Brasilia: Bocão finished with Andrea to go out with Geovanna, not sure what to say as I like them both, but I think Andrea is more suited to him! And to think he started seeing her after I said I didn’t want to go out with him… Marcos and Giu are not good, Giu is very controlling of Marcos and he can’t take it anymore… Marcos also got together with Giu after I told him to get lost… I don’t like such lovely couples that were formed because of me breaking up. I feel a bit responsible for them.
Nica moved to a shithole called Rondonopolis, she moved today, she must be feeling very sad.
I feel I’m changing, a lot. What I want is very simple and I will fight for it. I want what everyone wants but few get. A champion is being born! I’m going to graduate and excel at my career. I’m going to be completely independent, financially. I know I will get what I want! Nothing will deviate me from this path. I feel great strength and power. I’m going to meet a man and love him and he will love me. And my life will be excellent. Two children we will make, and I’m going to have to deal with their problems. Maybe this isn’t my mission but if it’s not then it’ll be something else. When I’m 50 I want to look back and smile, and not feel ashamed of anything I’ve done. I want to be satisfied with myself!
[Note: I’m 51 now! I’m so glad I wrote and kept my diaries, and yes, I had good, fun, hard at times, healthy life]