BSB 13/12/1987 Sunday
I got lucky. I had arranged to go out with Marcos and Reginaldo last night but Giu and Andrea showed up and I ended up staying home. I was pissed off. Everyone went home and me, Ascle, Renatinha and Rodrigo got left behind. Patricia had gone to a party and Rodrigo didn’t want to go, fortunately. Around half past midnight the four of us were at Renatinha/Rodrigo’s place (their parents were out), eating, drinking, watching tv, listening to music. At some point I went to the kitchen and Rodrigo too, he looked at me and made a sign for me to wait. We’d been staring at each other for days. We went outside and to shit on things Cleiton, Marcos and Reginaldo turned up – begging me to go out. Rodrigo and I looked at each other in despair.
We decided I’d go home and when there was nobody out he’d come to mine. It was 3am already. I had already told Marcos I wasn’t going anywhere and he was pissed off and left. I went home and 10 minutes later Rodrigo showed up. He didn’t have his car so we were sat outside my block. We talked for a bit and then we kissed. I don’t know how I feel about him, it’s really confusing. Definitely a strong, uncontrollable attraction. It was the first time we spent three hours together but didn’t get physical, even though I’d have loved to. We decided to get some money together and buy 2g of cocaine, he’s going to introduce me to it. I’m doing this more because it’s with Rodrigo then actually wanting to try cocaine.