BSB 10/12/1987 Thursday – Marcos
Unexpected news. I’m going out with Marcos, but it’s not that simple. I broke up with Andre on Friday. On Saturday Rodrigo got home at 4am from his graduation party and didn’t come to pick me up. On Sunday he started asking if I was mad at him because he stood me up. I was cold and said I had already come home from Marcos’ and was sleeping – which is a LIE – I waited until 4:30 like an idiot. I even said I had forgotten all about it… I’m tired of thinking about him. If he wants me he can chase me.
Marcos. Marcos is going out with Giuliane. On Tuesday I was liking him a bit, we were talking and I saw how much he likes me. But there’s an obstacle. Giu really likes Marcos and I don’t want her to hate me, she’s nice and I like her. Marcos feels sorry for her and cares about her. So we’re together but nobody knows – except Alexandra, Renatinha and Reginaldo. It’s hard because his house is full of people and we’re never really alone together.
It seems my destiny is to have secret relationships – worse of all I always end up alone, but at least I know Marcos likes me. I feel so confused. I have other stuff to deal with but keep worrying about boys. I hope I can ease up this obsession with men next year in Rio. It would be a good thing!